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Past Quarter-Life Crisis

1 November, 2023

Hey. I want to share a little bit of what happened to me lately, so here I go.

I’ve been in a prolonged anxiety and desperation with the going-ons in my life (this explains why I put the chopsticks near my eye, it says ‘tear here’). I’ve been questioning, wondering, pondering, digging why do I live, what do I need to achieve, what is the purpose of life, what makes a happiness a happiness, why am I not good enough, up to why did God put me this way, etc. etc. (I could make a lengthy roster out of it). These questions quite made me bewildered and are suffice to choke my lungs & throat. It burdened my chest. In someway, it’s one helluva severe hardships I’ve encounter so far. It hurts me inwardly. I could cry if I could, but I prefer not doing it.

(ctd.)


That was a caption I made on my Instagram back in 2018—I must’ve been twenty-one then. It was the year when the downpour of questions I never had was falling before me; what do I want to achieve, what should I become in the next future, what are the dreams I need to attain, do I even have a dream job, can I make my parents proud? Overall, what to do with my life. Let alone it was the year when I needed to finish my studies, thus the immense desperation.

I wasn’t even twenty-five when I posted it, but that infamous ‘quarter-life crisis’ does hit even before I—presumably, us—reached the age. And it’s real. I still can recall how heavy the stone was on my chest for I couldn’t realize how to crack it down into pebbles so I could breathe my fresh air again.

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Sasyalia S.
Sasyalia—26 tahun kini. Memiliki blog yang ditulisnya di pertengahan tahun 2021 ketika PPKM diberlakukan, di mana ini akan menjadi salah satu medium untuk menyalurkan apa yang dirasakannya sehari-hari. Lulus pada 2014 dari program Bahasa dan Sastra Inggris tidak membuatnya rajin membaca karya sastra. Namun, kesenangannya akan menulis mungkin akan dilakukannya melalui blognya dari sudut pandang orang pertama. Semoga bermanfaat (◦'⌣'◦)

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